A lot of people here adding their two cents. I don't want to talk about your personal life's decisions. I want to acknowledge that you have written something vulnerable and you speak to something deeper that all humans encounter: love is really complicated and rarely fits in the tiny little boxes we create for it. I won't sit here and moralize because I've made all the mistakes there are to make, and I also know things are really complicated. Everything's black and white until you're the one in the situation. All my best. -R