Nikki, this was beautifully written, which you don't need to be told. You must know your own writing ability. Your emotion pours so freely. Genuinely. Thank you for telling this story. The hardest stories are the most important to bring to light. For you but also for us.

As someone who went through something similar (and also has littered a few Medium pieces with its stardust) I can hold your hand and say I'm here. Regardless of how similar, no one can know your experience exactly, but they can join in solidarity.

I wish you the best as you continue to heal and find the light in the cracks. All my best. -Roman